Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Tameka's First Day in School

She was a little above 3 years when she first joined school. All preparations were happening full flegedly. We were all so excited. Shopping for stationery, shoes and all stuff possible, infact even those that were not required for school. More than Tameka the two of us behaved more like kids. She behaved more mature. She didn't approve of whatever we picked up, she just picked up those that she really required, the rest she said she already had or that she didn't require those. Done with all the hullabaloo.

The D-day, all 3 of us got up excited, got ready and left to school. Of course the first day since birth, that my darling is to be away from me for 3 full hours. The moment we reached school my heart started thumping and I wanted to go back home. I asked my hubby dear if we could do that and got a chide as his reply. How I wished, some miracle to take place and we could get back home. All in vain, we were in front of her classroom. Her teacher took her from our arms like a monster taking away our lil one. How I wept, I felt like the ground was sinking beneath me. She was a little comfortable, one glance at my tearful face and she came running to me crying.

Her teacher asked me to leave the place atonce. Both of us stayed back for the 3 hours to take her home. The dreaded time passed at snails pace. Finally I saw her run into my extended arms to share my grief.Alas being her father's girl,she was already in his arms. Now she is to complete a year in school but still I hate to send her to school. Wish I could keep her with me, which I know is impossible.

Sunday, August 16, 2009

My Lil One's Entry

Blogging has been on my mind for quite sometime, but, I thought, this is not my cuppa tea. Then I changed my mind, why not give it a try, nothing is impossible? Here I am with my first blog. What should I write about, this is what is raking my brain this very moment!!! What better topic to start off but about my lil angel?

There hasn't been one dull moment with her around. I'd always wanted a girl for reasons that I personally feel are right. The moment I knew I was on my family way I started the wild chase behind my dreams. No, no, not what you think, the usual, what should my baby grow up to be or how she should behave. But that I should have a baby girl who looks like me, she might or might not like it, I have the rights to wish, don't I? Whenever I met someone, they would readily say, God bless you with a baby boy, why should they? Isn't there a personal choice? Once,I ran across an article stating, you will have a girl baby if only you lie to this side, I guess it was the left that was mentioned, not sure though. What more do you expect, I lay to that side.

I was so restless expecting to bring my little one into this world. By now I had lost all hopes of having a lil girl, I made up my mind but prayed frantically for a healthy girl baby. The D-day, my Gynaec advised a scan, I did one and they said the baby will weigh anywhere between 3.75 to 4 kgs. Its a big baby. Went back home, had a good nap, rather slept till late in the evening. Here I wake up at 7 p.m and am I feeling something or am I not, yes I didn't feel my baby for quite sometime. We rushed to the doc, who had to say, my lil ones heart beat rate was coming down, let me do a caesarian. I was scared out of my freaking mind. Tears rolled down my cheeks. I called up my hubby dear and asked him to be by my side. My mom and my bro were more than worried.

We rushed to the hospital, got permitted and then all that followed was like a roller-coaster ride. I was injected on my spine, ooh what a painful thing, there I hear my baby cry as if from a distant. I was brought out of the theatre and I could see my mom, she grew closer, held my hand and smiled, It's a girllllll. Did I hear that right???? Yes, that was my happiest moment. She weighed 3.5 kgs at birth. My hubby rushed in, worried, he is so fond of kids but he wanted to see me first, isn't that enough, another moment of joy. Might sound silly but that is how a wife would feel from my perspective. The excitement caught on to me and I couldn't blink an eye the whole night.

After her birth there has been no looking back. As she grows up, she makes me feel a proud mom, every moment. Every word that she utters sounds like music to my ears. It sure is a life changing experience.